This last weekend was fall break. guess who did not get to enjoy fall break.. oh yeah me. why? because I worked ALL weekend. Oh and I had a microbiology test @ 8am the morning after what was supposed to be fall break.
And Thanksgiving is coming... about a month away. Oh wait.. guess who won't get to enjoy that break either... me again... because I work retail.
I'm 20. I'm supposed to be enjoying life. right? That's what I've been told. But it's so hard to do when I'm ALWAYS busy. I want to visit family, hang out with friends, enjoy my years in college. I feel like I work soooo much. I want to be less stressed out. I want to be able to get a good nights sleep. I work hard because I want a good job, I want a good life... but I want to enjoy growing up.
I wish I could just quit. But I also don't know if I know how to do that. I have bills and goals which make it hard to make an irrational decision like just quitting my job because I'm tired of being busy. But maybe I should try it and see where I'm taken.
I realize I'm having a minor pity party for myself right now. However, I needed to express these thoughts to someone... whoever may read this I suppose. I know that God has a plan for me.. and I know it's going to be WAY more awesome than the plan I may have for myself. But for now I'm just here figuring it out.
If you have any advice please do share.
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ReplyDeleteWow, I can see your dilemma. It sounds like you are over-worked right now, and you are right...you SHOULD be enjoying life! I still think my college years were my FAVORITE and I always encourage people to really enjoy those years! Is there a way you could try to get an on-campus job so that you wouldn't have to work those crazy retail hours? I worked at Starbucks while I was in college and while they still had crazy retail hours, we had alot more flexibility and we were not required to work. I hate that you are feeling so stressed out right now- you have the rest of your life to work! Feel free to call or come by any time...
Hi Orchie...I feel your pain. I had to do the exact same thing when i was your age. It took me a long time to finish school, but I made it. AND YOU WILL TOO. You are a responsible, maturing, beautiful young lady. You would go nuts if you had extra time on your hands...a different kind of stress, but stress nonetheless...except then you would be broke (talk about stressful). You are learning valuable lessons about managing time and priorities. These will sooo benefit you down the road. Believe me. Those that don't figure this out are tossed around like ocean waves as they grow older. Life is not always fun, but you need to find balance in your life right now. You need to learn how to say "no" to things and "yes" to others. This doesn't mean throwing the baby out with the bathwater. Let's talk about how you can make some adjustments to seek more balance (fun, work, school, etc.) when I'm home this weekend...k?
ReplyDeleteLove you!!!