i woke up with puffy eyes and a headache.... a long night of crying will do that to you.
my sister and i got in yet another fight last night. but this time... it was different. we always yell and scream and push each other, say things we don't mean. this time i said i said i hated her.
of course i didn't really mean it.
but my dad reminded me of how powerful the word hate is.
she's just probably the most difficult person to understand and deal with. we are so different. she is her own person. and as hard as i try to help and fix things i always fail. when will i learn. i can't change who she is. i can't control how she acts. she will understand in her own time.
its hard to explain why i get so upset when she does something we both know is wrong. but she's stubborn and apparently so am i.
i do know that i love her.
today i apologized for some of the things i said and explained my frustration.
but really you can't take back the things you say.
my filter broke last night and i relearned a good lesson,
think before you speak.
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