A break would be nice.

I am so burnt out. burnt out on everything. school. work. more work.

This last weekend was fall break. guess who did not get to enjoy fall break.. oh yeah me. why? because I worked ALL weekend. Oh and I had a microbiology test @ 8am the morning after what was supposed to be fall break.

And Thanksgiving is coming... about a month away. Oh wait.. guess who won't get to enjoy that break either... me again... because I work retail.

I'm 20. I'm supposed to be enjoying life. right? That's what I've been told. But it's so hard to do when I'm ALWAYS busy. I want to visit family, hang out with friends, enjoy my years in college. I feel like I work soooo much. I want to be less stressed out. I want to be able to get a good nights sleep. I work hard because I want a good job, I want a good life... but I want to enjoy growing up.

I wish I could just quit. But I also don't know if I know how to do that. I have bills and goals which make it hard to make an irrational decision like just quitting my job because I'm tired of being busy. But maybe I should try it and see where I'm taken.

I realize I'm having a minor pity party for myself right now. However, I needed to express these thoughts to someone... whoever may read this I suppose. I know that God has a plan for me.. and I know it's going to be WAY more awesome than the plan I may have for myself. But for now I'm just here figuring it out.

If you have any advice please do share.

kitty

This past saturday I adopted a kitten. She was free and came with pretty much everything. Someone found her and couldn't keep her, but bought everything she needed. My sister hooked me up and now kitty gets to hang out with me everyday. She is about 8 weeks old. And is veryyy active. I love her to pieces, she is so cute. But she's quite the biter. She loooves to play. She bounces spastically from one place to another and runs like a rocket. It's quite entertaining... And she plays in her litter box before she does her business. It looks like she's chasing an invisible bug haha. When she isn't playing she loves to snuggle. She sleeps with me at night. She has gone exploring around the house and finds the tiniest spaces to get into. But whenever I leave the house I always come back to find her nestled in the middle of my bed. It is the cutest thing!

This is my new kitty.

I haven't settled on a name yet. I'm considering Cleo. So if you have any ideas let me know!

Happily Ever After

In 1993, there was a movie that came out called "Happily Ever After". It is like a sequel to Snow White. But instead of the seven dwarfs there are the seven dwarfs' cousins. Instead of the queen, because she's dead, it is the queen's brother who is after Snow White.

Anyways. I loved this movie. I remember watching it all the time. I just recently came across a DVD store that has every DVD known to mankind... except Happily Ever After. I want this movie on DVD. We lost our VHS of it probably in one of the moves. The other day I watched this movie by chapters on youtube... someone else who loved it as much as me put the whole movie up. Ridiculous I know. I just w

anted to watch it so badly. I need to find it. Maybe Amazon will have it.

Just wanted to share this sweet movie with everyone. After watching it the other day I realized it is kind of a dark movie for children. Regardless, I still watched it and I still love it.

fun weekend.

I had a great weekend!
[For me it starts on Thursday night because I don't have Friday classes!]

Thursday night Emily and I reinstated date night. We talked and laughed and it was SO much fun! Can't wait for next week.

Friday I watched the Stump boys while Rick and Jaclyn had a night out. We played baseball and tag and made train tracks. I did baths and bedtime and enjoyed it so much. I love those two little stinkers. And for those of you who don't know... Jaclyn is prego. She should be popping out another one any day now. Excited for the new addition to that wonderful family! I hung out with Alicia that night, helped her pack for IWU. It was fun to talk and make jokes with her before she left for the semester.

Saturday I spent the whole day with the most amazing person ever. Wesley and I hung out outside for the most part because the weather was perfect! We went to Forest Park and played on the trains at the Indiana Transportation Museum. Then we went to Potters Bridge and walked around. The evening ended with a delicious dinner downtown at the Rathskeller. And he brought me a rose when he picked me up. He is so sweet!

Sunday I went to church with Wes and his parents. This was a blessing! I've had to work at American Eagle on Sunday mornings for the past month and this was the first time his parents came with us. It was an exciting morning. I worked later for a few hours.. it went by fast and I didn't have rude customers. After work my parents, Wes and I went to BD's Mongolian BBQ. delicious. Dad slipped on some water, fell to his knee and shattered his plate. He wasn't hurt. And Wes' blood boiled when no one cleaned up the water spill. This was fun to see. haha. That night we played cards. My parents almost always beat Wes and I, but it's fun anyways.

Monday I spent some time doing some much needed studying. [still a lot do to :/] Worked for a hours at American Eagle. time and a half! woo hoo. then enjoyed a fabulous dinner made by my mom.

I really enjoyed my weekend with family and friends. And the beautiful weather.

that's all for now. ♥

sleep.

I realize I'm only a week into classes but seriously.

On monday and wednesdays I have a 8AM class. this means I have to wake up before 6AM to get ready and leave by 6:45AM to get to class on time with all the crazies driving to work. whooaaaaa. morning traffic is crazy.. people r nutso! And I am NOT a morning person so these days are truly difficult. I try to go to bed early... but my body is never ready... because I don't have a schedule on the weekends AND on tuesday and thursdays I don't have class until 12:30PM. so I sleep in (a little). Every day is different. very different.

Today I got home from class early, had lunch with dad then came home and took a loooooong nap. And now I'm probably not going to be tired when I need to go to sleep tonight. But I was trying to study and could not keep my eyes open. It's a problem. I'll get used to it. hopefully.

Also I've been getting headaches every night and have some sort of sinus issue, maybe I've developed allergies? I don't know but that makes sleeping difficult as well.

I'll figure it out.
To sleep or be sleepy. I don't know.
:)

ready or not.

ONE WEEK EXACTLY.

ready or not..................one week til the fall semester classes start

not ready. dang it.
I feel like there is a lot to accomplish this next semester.

I CAN DO IT.
right?

sell this house.

I realize it has only been about two months with our house on the market. But it feels like so much longer.....

I so desperately want our house to sell sooner rather than later for my dad. he's living in a temporary transition until it does and I feel so bad for him. It will be weird living in an apartment and I will miss my parents company but I'm not worried. God is taking care of us and has a plan. We are just waiting to figure out what it is. He has a buyer for the house and knows exactly when they will look at the house and make an offer. We do not and this can make things difficult.

Pray for my family and give us patience.

summer

this summer... wow... how do I explain this summer?

key west. - gorgeous ocean. snorkeling. parasailing. kayaking. time with family.

transitions.
so many changes in such little time.
no longer a teen!
too busy.
motivation is just not there for summer school.
time with the stump boys!

great friends!
movies.
card games with my parents and wes.
kings island.


I guess summer is still not over.

one week of class left!
squeeze in some pool time.
maybe a visit to cincinnati.
see friends.
relax.

yepp, sounds good to me!

thoughts.

I'm currently sitting at Borders waiting for the showing at my house to be over.
I pray that today is the day!
That these people are the ones.
I just want the house to sell!
I'm tired of living in this transitional period.
I'm tired of being pulled a million different ways.
I think I need to take a break from life... is that possible?

Ugh.


In other news...
Dad and Oreo moved to Cincinnati a few weeks ago... I miss my puppy terribly and it is really weird without dad around during the week... but I suppose I should get used to it considering when the house sells I will be living in an apartment alone.
I'm waiting for the volunteering process at St. Vincent to finalize and begin the actual volunteering.
I'm trying to stay motivated for this summer school class... I do not recommend summer school to anyone. Blehh.
I still love babysitting and will always care for the kids I get to spend time with.
And I just became a Jean Expert at American Eagle.
Things with Wes are wonderful. And I am so thankful for him and all that he does. He always puts a smile on my face.

Update.

Just a couple BIG things I wanted to share...

First off.... Kelly moved out this past week and made her way down to Kansas, Missouri with her boyfriend. She arrived late last night, but made it down there "safely". My family does not agree with what she has decided to do with her life for the time being, however we still love her and are here for her whenever she may need us. Please just pray for Kelly and her safety while she is experiencing this new life so far away.

Next... For those of you that don't know my parents are moving back to Cincinnati. Our house is on the market, ready to sell. We had a showing Saturday and an open house today. Not too much interest thus far, but I know things will work out. Also, I'm in the process of finding an apartment. I will be staying in the area to finish school. There is a lot of transition happening all at once for my family. Again prayers are always helpful. Pray for the right buyer to see the house, a great deal on an apartment for me and a smooth and safe transition for us all.

Lastly... This past friday morning I received my Nursing letter. Excited and anxious I opened the envelope. Unfortunately, they were not able to offer me a spot in the program for the fall. This does not mean I'm going to give up. I will be reapplying for the spring. Yes I'm upset. I've had a good cry, but now its time to focus on what's next. God has a plan for me and definitely knows what He is doing. I truly believe this may have been a blessing in disguise. There is a lot going on in my life right now.

New, fun transitions and experiences ahead.
Staying positive, staying focused.